Feeling Grateful

I have struggled with anxiety issues since I was 11 years old.  It has been an incredibly challenging issue to deal with at times. It is something that comes and goes. I can go months, even years, without experiencing any bad anxiety. But when it hits, it always hits hard...and today was one of those days. It hit me out of nowhere, and I felt physically ill. When my anxiety comes on, a lot of crappy stuff comes with it. I get bad headaches, changes in my appetite, the fear of being alone, crying spells, weakness, dizziness, you name it. It really is awful. (I am only sharing this because my blog is private and I know my readers won't judge me!) :)
Anyway, although I am struggling with some anxiety today, I am also feeling very grateful. I am grateful that the Lord led me to the very best man for me. Darryl is incredibly sensitive to my struggles, and knows so well how to deal with me and help me feel better. He is strong when I'm not. He is level-headed when I'm not. He is kind and gentle when I'm not. In a way I'm very grateful for the hard days, because those are the days that help me realize how blessed I am. When Darryl is holding me, comforting me, and letting me cry like a baby, my love for him grows exponentially. I am grateful today; grateful for trials, and for an eternal companion who always helps me get through them.

“May your joys be as bright as the morning, and your sorrows merely be shadows that fade in the sunlight of love. May you have enough happiness to keep you sweet, enough trials to keep you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to keep you happy."